Post by lenityg on Nov 30, 2008 22:30:34 GMT
I should have known he was coming. I always know he's coming. I'm never called or dropped a text. I dont even get a letter saying he's coming to call. I just normally have some warning but this time he crept up on me, appearing one day without any sign.
And I wouldn't mind if he said I'll be here for a couple of weeks or a couple of days. But he never does. He just stays for as long as he wants.
I thought naively that he would realise by now there is no room for him in my life now. I am a wife now and I am working too hard in a job I love. He has no place. The places he used to take up where I almost seemed to welcome him as I knew him so well, the times we would sit in the pub with him by my side, they were gone now. Which probably made him appearing like he has done all the more shocking.
And I have to work. I don't have time to take time off to be with him as he likes. So he'll sulk and he'll make life difficult for me because I'm not devoting time to him any more. So I'll spend less time with my other friends and I'll spend less time with my husband so I can sit in my room with him in my spare time because I know thats what he likes.
Its not like I can say to people that he's visiting. A lot of them don't understand him and he doesn't like me telling people because he knows some of them try and get me to forget him. And he doesn't like that.
One day he'll be gone on his way and I just have to hope he doesn't stay that long this time. But while he does if I'm not that attentive I hope you'll forgive me. The old black dog doesn't like me to be sociable
Leni
And I wouldn't mind if he said I'll be here for a couple of weeks or a couple of days. But he never does. He just stays for as long as he wants.
I thought naively that he would realise by now there is no room for him in my life now. I am a wife now and I am working too hard in a job I love. He has no place. The places he used to take up where I almost seemed to welcome him as I knew him so well, the times we would sit in the pub with him by my side, they were gone now. Which probably made him appearing like he has done all the more shocking.
And I have to work. I don't have time to take time off to be with him as he likes. So he'll sulk and he'll make life difficult for me because I'm not devoting time to him any more. So I'll spend less time with my other friends and I'll spend less time with my husband so I can sit in my room with him in my spare time because I know thats what he likes.
Its not like I can say to people that he's visiting. A lot of them don't understand him and he doesn't like me telling people because he knows some of them try and get me to forget him. And he doesn't like that.
One day he'll be gone on his way and I just have to hope he doesn't stay that long this time. But while he does if I'm not that attentive I hope you'll forgive me. The old black dog doesn't like me to be sociable
Leni